The coffee at work was really good this morning, bringing extra contrast to how shitty everything else is. At the beginning of this job I was in a whirlpool of new concepts, terms, and processes. Now that I have become more familiar with them (5 months is enough for me to know that this is how things work) more questions are creeping into my head than "how do i do this?". Questions like:
A) How long will I be here? (probably not very long)
B) Does this line of work really suit me? (not really)
C) If you stayed at this job would you be happy? (no, but my bank account would be)
I have a fantastic job, a dream job for someone in my position. They treat me extremely well, the people are great, but ultimately the actual job just simply does not suit me. I went the finance route because I didn't know what else to do. Perhaps there is something I can do with my knowledge and skill-set that doesn't require being at an office desk and being extremely stressed for 12+ hours a day. Sadly, I can not think of anything like that, and so I continue on.
I need my brain to start working. At least the Dodgers won last night.
weight: 210 pounds. (gonna have to start tracking this so that I can actually see results... I'm probably in the worst shape of my life at this moment in time. I've had a natural aptitude to be able to shed weight easily and get in shape when I actually put any effort into it, so I'm not terribly concerned about this number right now)
mood: depressed
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